I’m bringing back my blog. I can’t promise much, as historically, I’ve been notoriously horrible at writing anything regularly. Even as a teenager I wanted to keep a diary, but couldn’t. It always started off inspired, and then ended abruptly, uninspired. Why would I want to write down the shit that was floating around in my head? Why would I want to see it in print? I didn’t, and I didn't want anyone else to see it either, so eventually the concept of keeping diary was eroded. The only thing I can recall, where I’ve been able to keep writing regularly, was song writing, and related to that, my MySpace, and my “blog style” home page that I kept for a good 15 or so years.
Anyway. Why am I back here? Foremost, I really need to practice writing more. I suck at it at the moment… And I used to be a lot better… I was asked by my good friend Christa of Vancouver WA., to write a blog for a new website she is working on. It was supposed to be on the topic of how yoga, and my photography, has helped me through the continuously rough patches of life I encounter. A super interesting topic, I thought, and packed my bag to head to the coffee house, since I concentrate better there… I sat down and realized that I had nothing to marry together into a blog. Well… Nothing isn't really true. I had too much, was the problem. I felt like a dam about to burst, so everything, and nothing came out at the same time. Plus, living with these topics makes one numb. I haven’t wanted to put words to my experience in a long time… It’s enough to dwell in them once, why want to relive them through writing? Leaving it all behind had been my preferred method of dealing… I had never felt that fragmented, and mute at the same time. Ever. So I left it for my website remodel. The perfect distraction from a world in shrapnels, and thus my mind in a similar state… So a couple of days ago, as I sat down at the coffee house to work on remodeling this website, I felt the urge. Writing the small anecdotes to my images was inspiring. It made space for more. And even though I had put aside writing Christa’s blog temporarily, I now felt that finishing it was possible. First to deal with an interview for a British art blog, and then…
So. I am not promising to be a regular blog writer, however, I promise to always write honestly. There may be thoughts, there may be stories, there may be everyday photos like the ones everyone takes to keep a memory, and finally there may be lame ass attempts at poetry… At any rate - I’ll be right here. At least every now and then. And if you want to reach me, you can always write me via the contact page.
